Thursday, April 19, 2012

New Day

The sun is is supposed to me a gorgeous weekend and it is a new heart aches so bad for my sweet Daisy and my puppies. The house is so quiet. I just dropped Gracie off at preschool and walked in the door and it just hit so hard to not have Daisy come running to me. I know with all of my heart that she is happy and pain free now and with the rest of my sweet babies and what an amazing reunion that had to have been. I can't wait until I am with them again someday too. I look forward to seeing Peanut everyday. She doesn't understand where all of the dogs have gone but she sure gives me tons of loves and kisses and right now that is just what this heart needs.

Started a new diet that several guys at work are doing and it has been the hardest diet I have ever been on! But I can do this! Lost 7 pounds the first week and I am now at a stand still which is so frustrating! I thought going without diet coke would be tough but I haven't even missed it! I am started to get my energy back which is awesome. One day at a time! I can do this!

I am off to get ready for work and tonight we have a barbecue/game night with friends! Let the good times roll!

Thursday, April 12, 2012

My Sweet Daisy

Daisy passed away yesterday morning and I miss that girl so much! My heart aches so bad for her. I am truly blessed that she was with us for as long as she was. After Millie, Dusty and Sadie passed away she just hasn't seemed the same. She has been so lonely and had pretty much stopped eating. I think she hung on as long as she could. With Daisy it has been different...with each baby that has passed, a part of me died with them, but I always had another one to hug and comfort me..this time with her being the last, I don't have one to hold or comfort me. I feel so empty. This house feels so empty and quiet. It just isn't the same. But on a happy note...I know with all of my heart that she is home...home with Sadie, Dusty, Millie and all of my other pets and family and friends that have passed on and that in itself brings me comfort I can't even begin to explain. To know she is pain free, healthy and happy running around with my other babies is the best gift ever. I am so grateful for the Plan of Salvation and the opportunity we will have to be together again someday if we live righteously. I don't know how people get through times like this without that belief. I prayed so hard on Tuesday night that Heavenly Father would come and get her and he did! I KNOW he hears and answers all of our prayers. Sometimes in ways we don't understand but I KNOW they are answered and I know he is always there. I am one lucky, lucky girl. Not only for all that I have been blessed with but for the knowledge of knowing my Heavenly Father lives and loves me beyond comprehension. He is my best friend and always there and I couldn't ever ask for anything more than that!